5K-W2-D2

Oh, thank heavens! This was about to be a seriously depressing post. Nearly 2 weeks into my 5K training and I stepped on the scale today and it still says 245lbs. I am beginning to feel that I am destined to forever be this weight. No matter how hard I try that number just doesn't want to budge. I felt like crying. It seems as though the only way for me to shed the weight is to literally starve myself, and lets be honest, I ain't going to do that. But then I thought I'd better measure myself. I was super scared to do it. If the numbers were the same then I would really have cause to cry. But, glory be! I have lost partial inches all around!!

my new numbers are as follows
Waist 45.25"
Hips 50.25"
Bust 47"
My original number can be found here.

5K-W2-D1

I was supposes to train yesterday. but since my hubby left at 5am, I couldn't very well go out at 6:30am and leave the kids. And there was no way I was getting up at 4:30am to get it done. So today it was.

It was cold this morning. I had figured by starting training for  the 5K in April I would miss all the cold well below 0C mornings. But this is not the case. So far only one morning has the temperature reached above 0C.  I can only hope that soon Spring will actually arrive. However in spite of the cool temperature this morning it was beautiful. I love the feeling of the sun coming up over the horizon. And although I did not get as much sleep last night as I would have liked to, I am feeling pretty good this morning. I hope to see some change on the scale soon, or at least in my measurements. On top of training for the 5K, the girls and I have also taken on a flyer route. We deliver to all of Milk River. The first week(last week) it took us a total of 5 hours and we walked about 5 miles. I've been trying to eat smart. I haven't been tracking my food, I've just been trying really hard at eating what I know I should be eating and the right amounts and leaving out the stuff I know I shouldn't eat. I know that I will not track what I eat for the rest of my life, so I've decided that I've got to be smart on my own. This shouldn't be hard. I know what and how much of things I should be eating. I've lost weight before with out tracking everything, I can do it again.

OK, this post was a bit all over the place. Just babbling through stuff that was on my mind I guess.

5K-W1-D3

I felt like I had bricks tied to my feet today. I was slower than normal...not that I can claim to be fast...at all. But it's all good. I'm loving this. It's so nice to have a goal. Not just a goal like "I'll exercise for 30 minutes three times a week". But a goal to actually run 5K in a race. That I can work towards. I can keep my eye on that prize. It helps having a training plan to follow. Another goal that I've set for myself is to climb Chief Mountain with my husband this summer. I wasn't doing very good at getting ready for that. I think that doing this training for  a 5K race is a great way for me to get ready for it, don't you?

This summer is going to be a good one. If all goes as planned it will be the first time I climb Chief Mountain and the first time that I have attempted any kind of really hike since getting married(10 years). It will also be the first time that I run in a race. I am so looking forward to it all!

5K- W1-D2

Why is it when you are trying to make a change for good, something always tries to get in the way and make it all that more difficult to do what you are trying to do?

Case in point. This week I started doing this 5K your way thing. Day one went great. Today...much more difficult. My darling little boy decided that he was going to be a rascal from about 3am until 6:30am when I planned to get up and go for my walk/jog. I still got up and did it. But now I am so stinking tired. It would have been so nice to just stay in bed for another hour. My only consolation is that I know very well that even if I had stayed in bed, I would still be just as tired as I am now.

But, it was a gorgeous morning, and I enjoyed my time alone in silence. I didn't even see one single person. It was just me and the cool crisp air. Felt good. Now I just need a nap.

5K-W1-D1

I started training to run a 5K race today. Starting out easy. I'm following the 5K your way challenge on sparkpeople. Instead of laying out the whole plan here, I'll just leave a link and then lay out the basic idea.
So go here to find the training options. I have chosen to start out with the jog/walk plan and once I complete this I'll move on to the running plan. I could just do the rookie running plan, but I want to be sure that I'm not overdoing it. After all I don't exactly have what one would call a "runner's body".  The basic idea is that I'll walk/jog in intervals with the jogging intervals gradually increasing 3 times a week for the next 5 weeks. By the end of 5 weeks I should be able to walk for 2min and jog for 3 for an entire 5K(3.1 miles). My ultimate goal is to run in the Milk River Bonanza Day 5K  road race this August long weekend.

This morning I got up at 6:30am(a huge deal for me) and head out to the High School track. It was a beautiful morning. Just a little crisp, and the sun was just coming up over the horizon. Today's goal was to walk for 4 minutes and then jog for 1 minute and repeat it 4 times. I discovered that this is much more easily done when I'm not pushing the chariot stroller with 80lbs of kids in it. I feel great this morning. I have so much energy right now. I thought to myself as I headed back home, that if it feels this great every morning, then it will be easy to keep it up. It's certainly nice to get off to a great start. I look forward to Wednesdays walk/jog.

a week

A whole week has gone by since I have written a post. So much for my daily posts. I don't even know where that week went. I can tell you that I didn't do anything worth reporting. My scale has been stuck at 245(morning weigh ins). Basically I have been stuck here since November. I keep telling myself that this means I need to take drastic measures. But nothing ever really changes. Some days I feel like I am never going to reach my goals. Other days I feel like I can do anything. But here's the thing, regardless of how dedicated I am from day to day, that number on the scale isn't budging. It is hard to keep it all up, when the results aren't there. I'm not making excuses, I'm just voicing frustration. I want to find a life style that I can live in, from now on and forever. I know that fitting 60 minutes of exercises in everyday from here on out and forever just isn't realistic. Not with 4 kids and a bazillion other things that need to be done everyday. Even if I were to somehow find a way to do that now, I know that it would not be something that I could keep up forever. So then when I cut back, I'd be afraid that all that I worked for would too easily be for not. But I obviously I have figure out how to fit in more exercise, because the 10- minutes a day that I was doing wasn't making any difference. So what is my magic number? How am I ever going to get out of this stupid rut? Last fall I made a goal to climb Chief Mountain with my husband this summer. I planned to get into better shape, and to loose about 25 pounds. That was 6 months ago, and I've only lost about 7 lbs, and honestly I don't believe I could even get close to the top of that mountain right now. I have A LOT of work to do in the next 4 months, if I am going to make it. Sometimes I just don't feel like I have it in me. Some days I just don't care. And then on most days lately I simply feel hopeless. I don't like feeling this way. I want to feel positive. I want to feel like I can do it all, that I will reach my goals. I need something. I don't yet know what. But I do. Something to give me hope and that inner strength. Because, as of right now, I simply feel like this is dumb. really really dumb....so far I have disappointed myself...and I feel as though if I don't succeed, I will have disappointed my husband....and that all just sucks, and makes me want to cry.

Slacker

I've been slacking off. I haven't been keeping track of what I have been eating. That's not to say that I have been eating junk. I have still been trying to eat smart. I was sick for a few days, and that always puts a kink in habits. I'll need to get back on track this week. If I'm ever going to reach my goal, I need to be consistent. Some times I get impatient and just want to see massive results right NOW. But I know that slow and steady is better...and that again is where consistency comes into play.

tonight the scale reads 248lbs. I don't like that number. I'll step on the scale in the morning(that is when I usually try to do it) and see if it makes a difference.