5K-W5-D3

I should really be beginning week 6, but I missed a day last week, so I am finishing out week 5. I've been pretty terrible at keeping up with making my daily entries.
I've been running for 3 minutes and walking for 1 for a few weeks now. I started out with running 5 intervals and increased it to 6 and today I increased it to 7 intervals. Last week I was feeling pretty good as I had previously just been able to complete one lap around the track in 3 minutes but last week I was able to run past the lap mark for 10 seconds before reaching 3 minutes.
Today wasn't as great. I was struggling to make it around in 3 minutes. But it may have something to do with not having a little something before I go running. Both time last week I had a quick bite (half a banana or half of an orange) before heading out but I forgot to do that this morning and I felt so sluggish. So I'll try eating again before heading out on Wednesday and see if that helps.

5K-W2-D2

So late last night Jakki texted me to see if I would be interested in jogging with her again this morning. Since I missed Monday I agreed to it. Wow it was a tough morning, but I got it done and was glad for it. Now tonight I'll head on out to work out with the ladies in Coutts at 9 to do a little strength training. Here's hoping I've got enough energy to get it done.

just getting started

Yesterday morning when I stepped on the scale it read 258.2lbs. This morning it read 256.2lbs. I like the looks of that. I have been making smoothies for breakfast and eating either eggs or sausages for a protein. I've been trying to eat mostly veggies at lunch and for dinner I'm just eating what I've always eaten. The next thing I need to do is work in some regular exercise. Which means getting to bed sooner so I can get up early. The going to bed early is the hardest part.

Day 119

Scale read 260.4lbs at 7:30am

So much for a new week, new start idea. Once again I did not get up with Kathryn this morning to go for a walk. My excuse, I was up twice last night with upset kids. Ella was up at 11:30pm and didn't head back to bed until almost 1am, and then James was up because he had a bad dream about bigfoot and I didn't get back to my own bed until 3am. So when my alarm went off this morning. I just didn't care and turned it off and went back to sleep. I will get back into the habit. I will. I will.

day 118

At 7:30am the scale read an even 260lbs. So I'm starting to see results with just tracking food, since I haven't been very good at getting exercise in every day lately. Just imagine what I could do if I was keeping up with my 5 days a week of cardio....I guess I better get back on track and start making some really progress.

See you tomorrow.

Day 101 - The beginning of a new day...I mean Challenge

So here it begins. Another 100 days. The first 100 were eventful, and yet not very eventful. I was pretty good at doing cardio 5 times a week, pretty much forgot all about doing push ups about half way through. And cheated a lot more often than I had said that I would allow.

But that was that, and this is now. So here is what I.m going to work at for this 100 days.

1. Continue with cardio 5 days a week.
2. Track my food at least 5 days a week. But aiming for everyday.
3. Get up at 6am at least 3 days a week to go for a walk or bike ride with Kathryrn. This will morph over the weeks as we prepare to run in the 5k Bonanza day race at the end of these 100 days.
4. Keep up on the blogging each day.

I'll keep it at that for now. I think last time I made it too complicated, too many things to keep track of. Tracking my food everyday is going to take some time, and it really is going to be a challenge, I don't think I have ever been successful at keeping at it for more than 3 weeks...if that. So this will take some dedication. But I know it's possible.

So here is today, and the next 100. 

See you tomorrow.

Day 20 - I can't breath.

OK, if I thought I felt crappy yesterday and didn't want to work out, today trumps that, ten fold. I am so stuffed up, breathing is a really effort. Just like yesterday, I didn't get up early today. BUT I did still do my work out after I laid the baby down for a nap. And just like yesterday, I was glad that I did. I felt great after the work out...now not so much, I'm right back to feeling all stuffed up and crappy. But this morning I felt pretty good.

I stepped on the scale this morning at 7 and the numbers read 265.8lbs. Yeah for that, but as a side note, that was before I had worked out and before I had eaten breakfast. I usually don't weigh myself until after I have worked out, and sometimes not until after I've eaten breakfast. So the numbers might reflect that. I think that I will try to remember to weigh myself before my work out every morning, I seem to like those numbers better....I'm sure it won't make any difference in the long run. Whether I am stuck at 266 or 265, I am still stuck. But for a day or two it might make me feel better.

Day 19 - I don't want to.

I did get up and exercise on Friday and I weighed in at the usual. I just didn't blog because as the day went on I felt more and more ill, so I never did get around to blogging for the day.  Saturday morning was much of the same. In the afternoon we headed to Lethbridge. I spent two hours or so with the kids, walking around one of my favourite places in Lethbridge. Indian Battle Park, it's down by the river. The weather was nice and warm and most of the snow is melted away. There were plenty of puddles and mud for the kids to stomp around it.

This morning, I didn't want to do this anymore. I wanted to be done. I wanted to give up. I hated it, and hated not seeing the numbers on the scale change. Once again the scale read 266.6lbs this morning. I hate maintaining. I can do that without getting up early every morning to work out. If I am getting up every morning to work out, I want to see numbers change. I want to be able to see that it's worth it. It's not like I don't have weight to loose, there is plenty of that. So why can't I loose it? I know the bit about muscle weighing more than fat, so don't feed me that line. I've gone through this frustration before. It's always the same. And I am pretty sure it is what brings me to a halt every time. It is so hard to stay motivated when the numbers on the scale refuse to budge. I know it's only been 19 days (this time). But I am terrified that this is going to end up like every other time and weeks down the road, I'll step on the scale and it will still say 266.6lbs. And then the 100 days will be up, and then what? What I want is that there will be a significant change in those numbers, like by 10 or more so that I can say "look what a difference this made! If I keep this up, I'll be at my goal in no time!" But what happens if I don't get that 10 difference? Nothing. I'll be frustrated and not want to keep going. What's the point? I'm obviously doomed to be this size in spite of my best efforts. Negative talk, negative talk, negative talk....enough.

So because I didn't measure myself on Friday, I did it today.

Arms 14"
Chest 50.25"
waist 49.5"
hip 53.25"
thigh 30.5"
calf 16"

I also added 2 and did 16 pushups today.

A New Year..

OK, so it's a new year and I am basically where I was at last year at this time. I'm no farther a head...but at least I am not any farther behind either.

Winter is hard. So hard to stay motivated. So hard to care. So hard to get on that stationary bike. But I know that I can't just sit and do nothing...although that is exactly what I have been doing since the end of October. So now what? Well I have to recommit myself. I have to find something that I can do. I have to find that ounce of "hey I really do care, and want to succeed" and I have to hang on to it and suck every ounce I can out of it so that I can finally realize my goals.

So here's to a new beginning. To help me along the way I am going to post pictures of my scale every so often over on flickr...I haven't yet decided how often, but I am hoping this will be one way to keep me on track and motivated.

My measurements today are as follows

hips 51"

waist 45"

bust 48.5"

thigh 29"

calf 16.25"

a week

A whole week has gone by since I have written a post. So much for my daily posts. I don't even know where that week went. I can tell you that I didn't do anything worth reporting. My scale has been stuck at 245(morning weigh ins). Basically I have been stuck here since November. I keep telling myself that this means I need to take drastic measures. But nothing ever really changes. Some days I feel like I am never going to reach my goals. Other days I feel like I can do anything. But here's the thing, regardless of how dedicated I am from day to day, that number on the scale isn't budging. It is hard to keep it all up, when the results aren't there. I'm not making excuses, I'm just voicing frustration. I want to find a life style that I can live in, from now on and forever. I know that fitting 60 minutes of exercises in everyday from here on out and forever just isn't realistic. Not with 4 kids and a bazillion other things that need to be done everyday. Even if I were to somehow find a way to do that now, I know that it would not be something that I could keep up forever. So then when I cut back, I'd be afraid that all that I worked for would too easily be for not. But I obviously I have figure out how to fit in more exercise, because the 10- minutes a day that I was doing wasn't making any difference. So what is my magic number? How am I ever going to get out of this stupid rut? Last fall I made a goal to climb Chief Mountain with my husband this summer. I planned to get into better shape, and to loose about 25 pounds. That was 6 months ago, and I've only lost about 7 lbs, and honestly I don't believe I could even get close to the top of that mountain right now. I have A LOT of work to do in the next 4 months, if I am going to make it. Sometimes I just don't feel like I have it in me. Some days I just don't care. And then on most days lately I simply feel hopeless. I don't like feeling this way. I want to feel positive. I want to feel like I can do it all, that I will reach my goals. I need something. I don't yet know what. But I do. Something to give me hope and that inner strength. Because, as of right now, I simply feel like this is dumb. really really dumb....so far I have disappointed myself...and I feel as though if I don't succeed, I will have disappointed my husband....and that all just sucks, and makes me want to cry.

Slacker

I've been slacking off. I haven't been keeping track of what I have been eating. That's not to say that I have been eating junk. I have still been trying to eat smart. I was sick for a few days, and that always puts a kink in habits. I'll need to get back on track this week. If I'm ever going to reach my goal, I need to be consistent. Some times I get impatient and just want to see massive results right NOW. But I know that slow and steady is better...and that again is where consistency comes into play.

tonight the scale reads 248lbs. I don't like that number. I'll step on the scale in the morning(that is when I usually try to do it) and see if it makes a difference.

This is me

March 11 2011

My scale says 247lbs, I am 5'8" tall.
My measurements are as follows
Waist 46"
Hips 51"
Bust 49"

These numbers have been about the same since November 21st 2010. The scale has risen and fallen between 241lbs and 248lbs. but generally in the 245lb range. I think that it is obvious that I am in a rut.

That is one of the reasons why I started this blog. I wanted to get myself thinking about this daily, not just thinking about it, because really I do anyways. But thinking about new and creative ways to get myself out of this rut...to move onward and upward(or downward if we are talking about the numbers on the scale). To report to someone(or no one) out there in bloggerland. But just writing it out helps in making that commitment again each day.

I stumbled across this quote once that really struck me

"There's a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when it is convenient. When you're committed to something, you accept no excuses; only results." Kenneth Blanchard

I haven't a clue who he is, but I liked his quote.

Speaking of commitment...I better go ride my stationary bike now while baby is sleeping.