5K-W2-D1

Didn't get out and go jogging on Monday so now we are a day behind, but we'll try to make that up on Saturday. It was a little chilly this morning and we had company. My friend Jakki Harty joined us this morning. She kept me going and pushed me harder. She stayed right by my side and I'm pretty sure she kept me going at a faster pace than I would have if I had been alone. Today I had intended on running for 3 minutes and walking for 1 minute. But after a minute of walking I just wasn't ready to start jogging again, so I walked for 2 minutes instead. It was quite a challenge to run for 3 minutes, if may have been the slightly faster pace than usual because I didn't think it would be so hard. But that being said it was a good jog. My knees are a little sore today, and that sucks.

Summer is gone...time to get in the groove

Alright, well so much for summer. Totally fell off the wagon, but last I checked I'm still sitting around the 260 mark. Time to get my but in gear and make some changes. To start Jakki Harty has challenged me to lose 10lbs by Oct 10. I'm not sure how reasonable that is, but I think I'll take her up on the challenge. To change things up a bit, she suggested that maybe I cut out carbs for breakfast. That will certainly change things up as I always eat a high fiber cereal for breakfast. So I have to start re thinking breakfast and see if maybe that will be enough to jump start my body into losing some of this weight. I think I'll even try to keep away from carbs for lunch and just allow myself to eat them for supper. I think I can do that. As for exercise I haven't yet figured that out entirely. Donna McLachlan and I want to start working out together a couple of times a week. And I think realistically I will need to just start getting up in the mornings before sending kids off to school. I can do these things! But I need to do some grocery shopping to get me all set up to cut back on my carbs.

Day 41 - and I'm back.

It's Tuesday, and I haven't worked out since Wednesday last week, that is until today. Life happened and I felt I had more important things to get done for my kids. So they came first. Then we were gone for the weekend to visit my brother and his family in Calgary and to attend a temple sealing in the Calgary temple. We got back late last night.

This morning I stepped on the scale at about 10am and it read 267.4lbs. So the time off seems to have cost me some. It's going to be tricky this week as the kids are on reading week break and will be home all week. But I'll just have to make it work. I can't afford to take more time off. getting close to half way through, and I really want to see something budge. I haven't been doing my pushups, I just seem to forget about them. I'll try to get back at it this week. The last time I did remember I was doing 18.

Day 20 - I can't breath.

OK, if I thought I felt crappy yesterday and didn't want to work out, today trumps that, ten fold. I am so stuffed up, breathing is a really effort. Just like yesterday, I didn't get up early today. BUT I did still do my work out after I laid the baby down for a nap. And just like yesterday, I was glad that I did. I felt great after the work out...now not so much, I'm right back to feeling all stuffed up and crappy. But this morning I felt pretty good.

I stepped on the scale this morning at 7 and the numbers read 265.8lbs. Yeah for that, but as a side note, that was before I had worked out and before I had eaten breakfast. I usually don't weigh myself until after I have worked out, and sometimes not until after I've eaten breakfast. So the numbers might reflect that. I think that I will try to remember to weigh myself before my work out every morning, I seem to like those numbers better....I'm sure it won't make any difference in the long run. Whether I am stuck at 266 or 265, I am still stuck. But for a day or two it might make me feel better.

Day 19 - I don't want to.

I did get up and exercise on Friday and I weighed in at the usual. I just didn't blog because as the day went on I felt more and more ill, so I never did get around to blogging for the day.  Saturday morning was much of the same. In the afternoon we headed to Lethbridge. I spent two hours or so with the kids, walking around one of my favourite places in Lethbridge. Indian Battle Park, it's down by the river. The weather was nice and warm and most of the snow is melted away. There were plenty of puddles and mud for the kids to stomp around it.

This morning, I didn't want to do this anymore. I wanted to be done. I wanted to give up. I hated it, and hated not seeing the numbers on the scale change. Once again the scale read 266.6lbs this morning. I hate maintaining. I can do that without getting up early every morning to work out. If I am getting up every morning to work out, I want to see numbers change. I want to be able to see that it's worth it. It's not like I don't have weight to loose, there is plenty of that. So why can't I loose it? I know the bit about muscle weighing more than fat, so don't feed me that line. I've gone through this frustration before. It's always the same. And I am pretty sure it is what brings me to a halt every time. It is so hard to stay motivated when the numbers on the scale refuse to budge. I know it's only been 19 days (this time). But I am terrified that this is going to end up like every other time and weeks down the road, I'll step on the scale and it will still say 266.6lbs. And then the 100 days will be up, and then what? What I want is that there will be a significant change in those numbers, like by 10 or more so that I can say "look what a difference this made! If I keep this up, I'll be at my goal in no time!" But what happens if I don't get that 10 difference? Nothing. I'll be frustrated and not want to keep going. What's the point? I'm obviously doomed to be this size in spite of my best efforts. Negative talk, negative talk, negative talk....enough.

So because I didn't measure myself on Friday, I did it today.

Arms 14"
Chest 50.25"
waist 49.5"
hip 53.25"
thigh 30.5"
calf 16"

I also added 2 and did 16 pushups today.

Day 12

Today's weight taken at 7:30am is 266.8lbs

Got up even though I didn't want to. I wanted to mope in bed because I miss my hubby. But I got up and was glad I did after I got going. I think that I need to start getting up at 6 instead of 6:15. I know it's just 15 minutes, so it shouldn't be a big deal. But I am not a morning person, so 15 of sleep is always welcome. But I need a little more time to get a little more in. I kinda felt like I cut things short this morning, but I had to get on with the morning and get kids ready for school. So right now I am resetting my alarm to wake me up at 6am.

Today I added 2 to my pushups. That brings me to 14. It was a bit tricky getting those extra two in, but I was able to do it. Slow and steady.

Tonight as I type this, I am dying for a snack. I just have the munchies and I keep thinking about what I could go get to munch on. I just went grocery shopping, so there are all kinds of things to snack on. And most of them are even healthy, but it is 10pm, and part of this challenge is to not eat after dinner, except on cheat day.

See you tomorrow.

Day 11 - This is me now

Alright, I thought I'd better post a picture of me at the beginning of my 100 day challenge so that I have something to compare with at the end of this challenge. Hopefully we'll be able to see some improvement.

Ugh! So here I am in my work out gear(and yes there are still Christmas decorations up...I have no good excuse for it, they are just there). Not great. I could list off a bunch of things that I don't like about this picture of me, but instead, I'm going to force myself to say something nice...

1. I like my smile, I always have, even just this half smile here, I like it. I was actually in the beginning stages of sticking my tongue out at my oldest daughter who is taking the picture.
2. I like my boobs. All thanks to a great bra. At least they don't look like I've had 5 kids.
3. I really like how I look in these glasses, I like how they accentuate my eyes without having to put any makeup on.

Day 10 - a tenth of the way there

I'm terrible at getting anything done towards this on Saturdays. It's 11:30pm and I just now did my pushups(12 of them) and that is all that I did. I kept meaning to get to my ab exercises, but I just never did. It seems to be hard to get around to it with the kids home all day. A lame excuse. I'll do better next Saturday, I promise.

Today's weight, taken at 11:40pm is 268.8lbs...oh yes and I just ate some chocolate chip mint ice cream...and probably more than I should have...

A New Start

Today I got up at 6:30am. I joined a challenge on Sparkpeople.com. The idea is to follow a 10 minute work out video 7 days a week and add an additional 30 min cardio workout 5 times during the week. Today was day one for me. It was a good one. Feeling good about this new challenge. I believe it is totally doable if I can just get over the getting up at 6am in the complete dark of night...which is not easy for me. But I did it today, so that is a great start. Wish me luck for the rest of the week.