One year later and Day 1 again

I know it's been awhile since I've checked in here, but I'm happy to report that things are going well.  The best news is that my weight continues to go down.  Slow and steady. In the past year I've lost a total of twenty pounds.  Not nearly as much as I had hoped, but I am happy with it.  I put on a shirt I haven't worm in about a year and if fit me so much nicer.  That's really when I realized that 20 pounds isn't too shabby.  Probably the first time that I felt really good about what I had accomplished this past year. 
So now I'm trying to take it up a notch. My goal right now is to work towards losing 10 pounds by the end of April.  I know that is ambitious but I'm going to stay positive, I know how my body works and that it takes a lot to shed the weight, but goals are what keep you moving forward.  So here's to the next 100 days. (Actually 100 days from now is May 16th )

Today I weighed in at 249.4lbs.

I hate this game

Why do I keep playing a game I cannot win? Why do I keep working at something that just doesn't change? WHY?

Because there is always some hope that maybe this time there will actually be some progress made. Maybe this time this trick will work and you'll see the pounds come off. Maybe this time will be different.

But it never is. Nothing is different. Nothing changes. I'm still fat, I still weigh 256lbs, some times 258, and sometimes 260. The numbers don't change, just bounce around between each other.

I hate this game, everything about it, and yet I just keep playing.

still stuck

Weighed in at 258 this morning. There was a glimmer of hope that maybe things were going to go down...but not so. Maybe it was the popcorn and cheesies that I ate on the weekend. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate this? well I do.

just getting started

Yesterday morning when I stepped on the scale it read 258.2lbs. This morning it read 256.2lbs. I like the looks of that. I have been making smoothies for breakfast and eating either eggs or sausages for a protein. I've been trying to eat mostly veggies at lunch and for dinner I'm just eating what I've always eaten. The next thing I need to do is work in some regular exercise. Which means getting to bed sooner so I can get up early. The going to bed early is the hardest part.

Summer is gone...time to get in the groove

Alright, well so much for summer. Totally fell off the wagon, but last I checked I'm still sitting around the 260 mark. Time to get my but in gear and make some changes. To start Jakki Harty has challenged me to lose 10lbs by Oct 10. I'm not sure how reasonable that is, but I think I'll take her up on the challenge. To change things up a bit, she suggested that maybe I cut out carbs for breakfast. That will certainly change things up as I always eat a high fiber cereal for breakfast. So I have to start re thinking breakfast and see if maybe that will be enough to jump start my body into losing some of this weight. I think I'll even try to keep away from carbs for lunch and just allow myself to eat them for supper. I think I can do that. As for exercise I haven't yet figured that out entirely. Donna McLachlan and I want to start working out together a couple of times a week. And I think realistically I will need to just start getting up in the mornings before sending kids off to school. I can do these things! But I need to do some grocery shopping to get me all set up to cut back on my carbs.

Day 187

I'm alive, really I am. I have been weighing in daily, just not recording it here. Today's weight was 158.6lbs. not bad. not excellent. But it is what it is. Summer is busy and fun.

see you again soon.

Day 177 - back from camping and back into the groove.

So we are back from camping....and the scale reads 259.6 lbs. So it seems as though I gained 10lbs while camping. OOPS! so much for being a good girl. But honestly I don't know what I would have done differently, except for not drink so much Dr. Pepper. And that pop must have been what did me in, because we just ate what we normally eat. So here I am back at the beginning, trying to get back on track. I hope that maybe Kathryn and I can get up and at it in the mornings and get walking or biking together.