Feeling good

So since my last sad post I put myself to work. Well kinda. What I really did was start to track what I was eating EVERY day on sparkpeople.com and I've been keeping with in my calorie range(around 2000 calories). AND I haven't had a single little Halloween chocolate bar since SUNDAY! It's killing me, the no chocolate bit. I've also pretty much stopped nursing Ella. I have mixed feelings about that. She's my last baby, and she's growing up, and I'll never nurse another baby ever again. It's kinda sad. But She has a mouth full of teeth, and she is a nasty biter, and I was getting so sore. So I started her on Formula. She's almost 9 months old now, and most of my other kids were drinking formula at 9 months. So I am OK with it and sad all at the same time. Anyway, my point is simply that now that I am not nursing, and now that I am really being diligent about watching what and how much I am eating, I am starting to see some wonderful results. In less than a week I have lost 5lbs. And all I have done is cut back my portions and track what I am eating. I am still eating the same kinds of food that I was eating before, just less of it. I'm feeling good today. Feeling like I'm off to a good start and like maybe this time I'm going to make it work. Yep, I'm off to a good start!

Here we are again

Feeling fat today. Might have something to do with the 270 pounds that I weigh. Yeah, that's right, I weigh a ridiculous 270 pounds. That means that I have put on about 7 pounds since having my last baby. She's now 8 months old, and instead of loosing weight, I've put on a little. Not good. I don't like being this size, but I've been finding it so hard to balance life with a baby and a 3yr old at home all day and finding time to get exercise in. Excuses, excuses. That's all I have, and 270 pounds to show for it. So I guess it's time to make some changes. To start, I plan on working on tracking what I am eating with sparkpeople.com. I know this can work and I know that I can see a change when I simply change what I am eating. So, even though I have a draw full of Halloween chocolate, I will not be indulging in it every day. I'll only be letting myself have  some on Sunday's.  This is doable. I just hate feeling this way...defeated. I gotta find my way out of this and I am hoping that maybe writing on this blog again might help me out some...at least it will be a place to cry, a place to vent and hopefully a place to cheer myself on. And maybe, just maybe, one day it will contain my success story.