Day 79

Not a very eventful day in the world of exercise. The scale read 263lbs this morning at 7:30. I did a work out, but only for 20 minutes. I was so sluggish, it was a miracle that I got through 20 minutes. It's looking as though my hopes of dropping below 260 are not going to be realized, unless I have a seriously amazing 20 days...anything is possible, but looking at my track record, those numbers aren't likely to budge very much. BUT, that is no excuse to not put for a full effort for the next 20 days. I'll finish these 100 days strong, and then I'll move on to the next 100 days, with new challenges and new motivations. I really am loving the idea of breaking this journey up into 100 day bits. If I can keep this up then I know that success will come. Just gotta keep going, keep moving forward, and keep working at it 100 days at a time.

See you tomorrow.

Day 78 - my evening dilemma

I forgot to weigh myself this morning AND I fell asleep on the floor watching Cars with James this morning, so I haven't yet done a work out. Now that it is 9:30pm, I don't want to do a work out, I want to go sew. I have a million projects running through my head and not nearly enough time to work on them all. What to do, what to do....

see you tomorrow, maybe then I will have finally made up my mind...

Day 77 - Why didn't I ask sooner?

Scale read 264lbs this morning at 7:30.

On Monday night after saying prayers before climbing into bed, I had the impression, again, that I needed to ask Daniel to give me a priesthood blessing in regards to my efforts to loose weight. I first had this impression probably two months ago. But I haven't yet acted on it, It was never a good time, I felt silly, or weak or something, I figured I could do it on my own. It kinda felt like a silly thing to ask for a blessing for. And yet, I knew that I wasn't succeeding on my own. I knew that I needed help from my Heavenly Father, and I had been praying for it...and the answer kept coming, "ask for a blessing". And I kept putting it off. Until Monday night. I was laying in bed, Daniel was reading something, and I kept thinking "just ask him". And yet, I just laid there. Until it clicked, the adversary was putting these thoughts of doubt in my head and I needed to just ask. So I did. I just blurted it out, and even said how silly I felt and that I had been thinking about it for such a long time. Daniel laughed at me...not because I had asked for the blessing, but more so how it all came out. Then he told me that he didn't think it was silly, and that it seemed completely reasonable. So last night, before heading to bed, he laid his hand on my head and gave me a priesthood blessing. One of the first things he said was "Your Heavenly Father is by your side on this journey, and he wants you to succeed." If I had any doubt that this blessing was from my Heavenly Father, this sentence certainly affirmed that it was indeed what He wanted me to hear. "This Journey I'm on" is a phrase that I use  often when I am talking to my Heavenly Father about my goals and desires for weight loss. And to hear that word used in my blessing assured me that He had been listening to me, and he was indeed by my side. I was encouraged to keep working on new goals, to reevaluate what needs to be done to reach them. I was told that I would find new ways to include exercise in my life as the weather improved and warmed out, and that I would be surprised to find my children leading out in this way. I was encouraged to be positive and patient and that results will come. 

So this is me being patient, and on the look out for new ideas. I felt so peaceful after the blessing that I wondered why I had waited so long to ask....silly prideful me. Just another lesson in humility I suppose.

See you tomorrow

Day 76

At 7:30am the scale read 263.2lbs. Right now I should be exercising, but I am so tired and I have spent about 30 minutes or more arguing with myself over exercising or napping. And yet, I am still doing neither. Napping however, seems to be winning. And then I'll just have to hope that I will get a chance to work out after I put the kids to bed tonight. I'm just so sleepy...

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So I did have a glorious nap. And I did do a 20 minute work out after the kids went to bed. I'm such a good girl...

See you tomorrow

Day 75 - WOW! 3/4 done!

Today when I stepped on the scale at 8am, the numbers read 262.8lbs. Getting close to the 260 mark. I am sure hoping that I can break that number in the next 25 days.

I did two 20min workouts today. The second one is a little more challenging. It is a faster pace, I always find it hard to keep up, but it feels good. Feeling positive today. Even if I haven't seen the results that I was hoping for on the scale. I am happy with the way I feel over all. When these next 25 days are up, I'll start a new 100 day challenge that will include different goals that will help on this journey. Not sure what exactly they will be, likely will include tracking what I eat and getting ready to run a 5k race again. I like the idea of taking this journey 100 days at a time. Maybe, just maybe I'll be able to keep with it for the long haul.

See you tomorrow.