Here we are again

Feeling fat today. Might have something to do with the 270 pounds that I weigh. Yeah, that's right, I weigh a ridiculous 270 pounds. That means that I have put on about 7 pounds since having my last baby. She's now 8 months old, and instead of loosing weight, I've put on a little. Not good. I don't like being this size, but I've been finding it so hard to balance life with a baby and a 3yr old at home all day and finding time to get exercise in. Excuses, excuses. That's all I have, and 270 pounds to show for it. So I guess it's time to make some changes. To start, I plan on working on tracking what I am eating with sparkpeople.com. I know this can work and I know that I can see a change when I simply change what I am eating. So, even though I have a draw full of Halloween chocolate, I will not be indulging in it every day. I'll only be letting myself have  some on Sunday's.  This is doable. I just hate feeling this way...defeated. I gotta find my way out of this and I am hoping that maybe writing on this blog again might help me out some...at least it will be a place to cry, a place to vent and hopefully a place to cheer myself on. And maybe, just maybe, one day it will contain my success story.