I hate this game

Why do I keep playing a game I cannot win? Why do I keep working at something that just doesn't change? WHY?

Because there is always some hope that maybe this time there will actually be some progress made. Maybe this time this trick will work and you'll see the pounds come off. Maybe this time will be different.

But it never is. Nothing is different. Nothing changes. I'm still fat, I still weigh 256lbs, some times 258, and sometimes 260. The numbers don't change, just bounce around between each other.

I hate this game, everything about it, and yet I just keep playing.

still stuck

Weighed in at 258 this morning. There was a glimmer of hope that maybe things were going to go down...but not so. Maybe it was the popcorn and cheesies that I ate on the weekend. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate this? well I do.

just getting started

Yesterday morning when I stepped on the scale it read 258.2lbs. This morning it read 256.2lbs. I like the looks of that. I have been making smoothies for breakfast and eating either eggs or sausages for a protein. I've been trying to eat mostly veggies at lunch and for dinner I'm just eating what I've always eaten. The next thing I need to do is work in some regular exercise. Which means getting to bed sooner so I can get up early. The going to bed early is the hardest part.

Summer is gone...time to get in the groove

Alright, well so much for summer. Totally fell off the wagon, but last I checked I'm still sitting around the 260 mark. Time to get my but in gear and make some changes. To start Jakki Harty has challenged me to lose 10lbs by Oct 10. I'm not sure how reasonable that is, but I think I'll take her up on the challenge. To change things up a bit, she suggested that maybe I cut out carbs for breakfast. That will certainly change things up as I always eat a high fiber cereal for breakfast. So I have to start re thinking breakfast and see if maybe that will be enough to jump start my body into losing some of this weight. I think I'll even try to keep away from carbs for lunch and just allow myself to eat them for supper. I think I can do that. As for exercise I haven't yet figured that out entirely. Donna McLachlan and I want to start working out together a couple of times a week. And I think realistically I will need to just start getting up in the mornings before sending kids off to school. I can do these things! But I need to do some grocery shopping to get me all set up to cut back on my carbs.

Day 187

I'm alive, really I am. I have been weighing in daily, just not recording it here. Today's weight was 158.6lbs. not bad. not excellent. But it is what it is. Summer is busy and fun.

see you again soon.

Day 177 - back from camping and back into the groove.

So we are back from camping....and the scale reads 259.6 lbs. So it seems as though I gained 10lbs while camping. OOPS! so much for being a good girl. But honestly I don't know what I would have done differently, except for not drink so much Dr. Pepper. And that pop must have been what did me in, because we just ate what we normally eat. So here I am back at the beginning, trying to get back on track. I hope that maybe Kathryn and I can get up and at it in the mornings and get walking or biking together.

Day 161

Oh man, I'm getting bad at this. I haven't been tracking my food as much on Sparkpeople.com. I still try to log in everyday to keep me at least thinking about it. This morning the scale read 258lbs.

On Monday we are heading out camping for 10 days, so I won/t be posting or tracking my food. I'm keeping that in mind as I make up our menu and start gathering our food. I'll be trying to keep it as balanced as I can.

Day 156

A crappy day today. One of Kathryn's classmates passed away last night. And that just sucks.

Today the scale read 258lbs. Yesterday it read 257.4lbs. It's nice to see those numbers. But today, I just don't care.

Day 153

So this getting up in the morning and walking thing hasn't really been going all that great. But I continue to try to track my food. Even if I don't I have been very mindful  of what I am eating. And the efforts seem to be paying off. Over the weekend the scale dipped to 257lbs. But this morning it was back at 258.6lbs. But I'm OK with that. Summer is coming, and I am so excited! Camping and outdoor fun galore. I was planning the camping menu today. I'm going to have to be careful and try not to indulge too much on the treats so as not to set myself back too far. I think I can do it. I'm liking the direction the scale is going too much to mess this up badly now.

Day 146

Scale read 158lbs at 7am. I must be in some alternate reality. I guess it's really paying off to be really careful about what I am eating. I hope I can keep it up.

Day 146

Well hello friend! Today the scale read 259lbs. That is a new first. Don't know really what I did to deserve that. Hope it sticks around though, at least for a little while, and then I'd like to see some of his friends, 258, 257....etc.

Day 145

I'm in such a funk. I just can't seem to find my getup and go. Not only that, but I just don't seem to care. And I'm kinda mad at myself for not caring, but not enough to make myself care. I am still trying to track my food. I usually do breakfast and lunch, and I am concious about what I am eating for supper, but often don't enter it in on sparkpeople. The good news is that I am not gaining any weight. This morning at 7am the scale read 260.4lbs. So I'm still sitting at the same place. It's kinda hard to believe that anything would be different if I were up at at it every morning, since during my last 100 days the numbers refused to budge despite my best efforts at getting up and getting going. Maybe that's part of my problem right now....I don't know, and I kinda don't care.

day 141

Wow, I've got really bad at this posting every day thing. Life is busy and the weather has been beautiful. We've been spending a lot of time outside in the garden, the yard or out for little walks with the littles. That must be why I don't spend as much time on the computer posting. I also have a couple of posts in draft form on my other blog. I guess I need a rainy day so I can get caught up. I have been trying to remember to track my food and most days I do pretty good. I'm still hovering around the 261lbs for weight. Some days it's less some days it's more. If I could just get in the groove and get my exercising act together, I might be able to make some real progress. I know I keep saying that, and I don't know why it is that I just can't seem to get it all together, I really do want success. I haven't ever heard back about my blood test to see if there was a thyroid problem. I guess maybe I should call the doctor's office today and see if there is anything to know.


Today, the scale read 261.8lbs at 7:30am.

Day 135

Well it hasn't been a good week for posting regularly. I have however been tracking my food, and we've gone for a walk twice and I've been weighing myself every morning, I've been hovering around 261 all week.

This morning at 6:30 the scale read 260.4lbs. Kathryn and I went for a walk this morning. It's sure getting beautiful. Next week we're going to start biking in the mornings some times. That will be fun I think. What I really need to start doing better is strength training. I've been totally slacking in that area...kinda like with the walking. It all needs to improve. This week is now over, so Next Monday is a new week and time to stop being a lazy bum and get up and get moving.

Day 128

So today I've finally recovered from my weekend of indulgence. The scale read 260.2lbs at 8am. Not too bad for not having actually done any real exercise this week. it was all just watching and tracking what I was eating. Now to put the two together. It's obvious to me, that if I do, I will actually see some significant results. So why has it been so hard to just get up and do it?

Day 127

So, not so good at posting this week. The scale read 261.6 at 8am. So recovering from my weekend of indulgence. Have been terrible yet again about getting up and getting out. James and I frequently go for walks with Ella in the stroller, but they aren't exactly what you would call a work out. But at least I'm getting out...right? We'll be headed out again this afternoon. he loves going for walks, so off we go again. Now I just gotta get back into a morning routine, the weather is just getting too nice, during the day I want to be out in the yard with the kids instead of inside working out. So if I am going to get a work out in ever during this stint of my 100 day challenge, it's going to have to be in the mornings before the kids are up and getting ready for school. And if I am going to entertain the thought of running a 5k for Bonanza day the first weekend in August, I am going to really have to get up and get going. These things just don't happen by themselves, now do they?

Day 124

Scale read 266lbs this morning. YIKES!

I guess the deep fried pickles I ate on Saturday and my indulgent Mother's day dinner of steak, grilled caesar salad, loaded baked potato and no bake cheese cake have come to haunt me. Lets hope I'll be able to work that off this week. We got in late last night after visiting with my mom in law, so Kathryn didn't get up to go walking with me this morning, so I didn't get up either. I'm hoping to get a walk in later today. But one thing I will do this week, is be really good at watching what I am eating and keeping track of it. It's easy to see how that makes a difference after a weekend like this.

Day 119

Scale read 260.4lbs at 7:30am

So much for a new week, new start idea. Once again I did not get up with Kathryn this morning to go for a walk. My excuse, I was up twice last night with upset kids. Ella was up at 11:30pm and didn't head back to bed until almost 1am, and then James was up because he had a bad dream about bigfoot and I didn't get back to my own bed until 3am. So when my alarm went off this morning. I just didn't care and turned it off and went back to sleep. I will get back into the habit. I will. I will.

day 118

At 7:30am the scale read an even 260lbs. So I'm starting to see results with just tracking food, since I haven't been very good at getting exercise in every day lately. Just imagine what I could do if I was keeping up with my 5 days a week of cardio....I guess I better get back on track and start making some really progress.

See you tomorrow.

Day 117

Scale read 261.4lbs this morning at 7:30am.

Cursed sleep. I slept in again this morning, so once again Kathryn and I didn't go for a walk. But I did do my strength training today. And that really is all there is to say. Tomorrow is a new day.

Day 114 - fallen

Oh man, I have fallen off the work-you- butt-off wagon. The only day that I really did anything this week was Monday. Wednesday I did do some strength training, and my muscles are still achy from that, but seriously...twice in one week is not much of anything. This morning, I just didn't get out of bed to go for a walk with Kathryn. No accident there, I just turned off the alarm and went back to sleep. LAME. Yep, that's me. I have been pretty good at tracking my food. Not 100%, but even when I don't track, I've been conscious of what I am eating, and not just eating when I feel munchy. This evening however, I did eat a burger and poutine at Mcdonalds. So that completely ruined a day. Was doing so good up until that point today.

So here I am right now promising that next week is going to be better. I will not sleep in. I will get to bed earlier. I will go, even if it is cold. Or at least get up and do a video work out. I'll never get anywhere if I keep this crap up. So here's to doing better next week and getting back on track completely.

In other news, When I stepped on the scale yesterday morning, the scale read 260.8lbs. First time I've dropped to that number...lets hope we see a little more of it...and then continue on down the scale.

See you tomorrow.

Day 112

Scale read 261.0lbs at 7:30am

I slept in this morning, so Kathryn and I didn't get to go for our walk. But I did spend some time doing some strength training today. I haven't been so great at getting it done since I started walking and not doing the videos, most of my videos have it worked in. I may be sore tomorrow. But that will be good.

see you tomorrow

Day 111

Scale at 7am read 261.2lbs

James wanted to go for a walk as soon as the kids headed off to school. But I wasn't ready to go. When Ella went down for a nap he asked if we could go for a walk now. I told him we would go as soon as Ella woke up. The very moment that she was awake he was asking if we could go. I told him we should have lunch first. When we were done eating lunch we got ready to go and headed out for a walk. Now when James wants to go for a walk, what he is saying is that he wants to be in charge. So he gets to tell us which way we get to go every time we come to a corner. So that is what we did. We went all over in circles and back tracking. And then he was done and wanted to get in the chariot with Ella. At which point I could pick up the pace and take advantage of the extra resistance now seated in the chariot. We made our way over to Kinsmen park and enjoyed the beautiful spring day that it was. We then headed on down past the school and said hello to the kids playing out on the playground for recess, and made our way back home. A good day.

Day 110

Got up at 6am. weighed myself, 263lbs. Went for a walk with Kathryn. It was cold(ish) -1C and the wind was blowing which cut right through my sweatpants and jacket. Spent all morning trying to warm up. As I write this I realise that I have forgotten to do some strength training, so I better get that in here while Ella is distracted.

But first I wanted to just add something. I had a nap today, and after an hour I still felt so tired and it was so hard to wake myself up. Lately, if I have a nap, it's always the same, no matter how long or short the nap is, I just can't wake up. I feel like I could just go on sleeping all day long. Now that I'm finally up I don't feel so tired. I can go on with the day, but it's the coming out if it that just feels impossible. Wonder what that's all about?

see you tomorrow.

day 107

scale read 262.2lbs this morning at 9.

Not much  to report today. Still didn't get up and go for  a walk. The kids and I did some geocaching today, but it was a lot of driving and hardly any walking. Fun, but not exercise involved. When the kids get back to school on Monday, it'll be easier to get back in the groove of things.

See you tomorrow.

Day 106

Wow, well, it's been a while since I've been here to report my progress. I think it's likely because the kids are on spring break and I just am not in my regular routine. I've been working at tracking my food, and so far I'm doing pretty good. I haven't been getting as much exercise in as I should be, Kathryn and I did get up and go for a walk on Monday. We should have done it yesterday, but didn't. Tomorrow is a new day and I plan to get up and walk tomorrow morning. When the kids are back in school the plan is that Kathryn and I will get up and walk on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. When the weather gets a little warmer, we'll ride bikes on two of those days. Right now we are just happy that it's light enough to go out for a walk.

today the scale read 262.3lbs.

Day 101 - The beginning of a new day...I mean Challenge

So here it begins. Another 100 days. The first 100 were eventful, and yet not very eventful. I was pretty good at doing cardio 5 times a week, pretty much forgot all about doing push ups about half way through. And cheated a lot more often than I had said that I would allow.

But that was that, and this is now. So here is what I.m going to work at for this 100 days.

1. Continue with cardio 5 days a week.
2. Track my food at least 5 days a week. But aiming for everyday.
3. Get up at 6am at least 3 days a week to go for a walk or bike ride with Kathryrn. This will morph over the weeks as we prepare to run in the 5k Bonanza day race at the end of these 100 days.
4. Keep up on the blogging each day.

I'll keep it at that for now. I think last time I made it too complicated, too many things to keep track of. Tracking my food everyday is going to take some time, and it really is going to be a challenge, I don't think I have ever been successful at keeping at it for more than 3 weeks...if that. So this will take some dedication. But I know it's possible.

So here is today, and the next 100. 

See you tomorrow.

Day 100

Well there it is! 100 days is up. Official way in this morning at 8 was 261.8lbs. Not so bad, but not as good as I was hoping for. But tomorrow is a new challenge and a new day. So lets see how that goes shall we.

Measurements

chest 50"
waist 48.5"
hip 53"
Thigh 30.5"
calf 16.5"

Day 98 - still drained

OK, OK, I know I've totally crapped out the last part of this challenge. Instead of finishing strong, I've just let it all go, and haven't cared one little bit. I blame it on my little get away with my hubby. The few days leading up to it, I was busy getting things ready so I did that instead of working out, and now that it's only a few days until my 100 days is up, I just don't see the point. Blah. Way to go Mandy. A real winner you are.

I had my yearly medical check up the other day. I told my doctor how I had been struggling to loose weight, only 6ish pounds in 100 days. He suggested that maybe I have a slow thyroid, and ordered some blood tests. So I'm kinda hoping that maybe that is the answer to part of my struggle. At least then there would be something that can be done about it. If that isn't the problem...well then I guess I'll just have to be happy with the 6 pounds that I have lost, and just keep working to loose what ever I can.

Today the scale read 263.4lbs at 7am.

Day 97 - Done like dinner.

Scale read 264.4lbs this morning.

I'm not feeling an ounce of motivation to do anything today. I just don't care. I'm done with it. Ninety-seven days later and I have only lost 6 lbs. less than a pound every ten days. Nothing significant. Nothing impressive. It sucks royally. Good thing it's nearly time to change things up and work on a new 100 day challenge. Time to focus on something different. Time to renew and recharge.  I hope it works. I hope I have enough umph to keep going on this journey. It's a long road, and I know I just gotta keep working at it. I just would like to see more concrete results. The kind of results that make you feel like all the work has been worth it.

Day 92 - regrets

Well I should forced my achy body to do some kind of work out yesterday because today, I have a sick little girl home from school and a millions things to try to do while Ella was napping. While Ella napped, I didn't work out, I sewed aprons for a friend who had asked me to sew her three girls aprons for Easter. Sewing can only be done while Ella is napping, or when there is someone else around to keep an eye on her. So I chose to sew instead of work out. But maybe later this evening when the kids are all in bed I'll get a chance to fit one in. That is a good idea. I think I'll try that. I'm glad we had this talk.

Scale read 263.2lbs at 7:30am

See you tomorrow.

Day 91 - I hurt

I just laid Ella down for a nap, and I should really do a work out. But I am so sore. Yesterday I spent the morning  building a compost bin out of pallets. It required a lot of hammering, to dismantle some pallets and then nail those pieces into place on the other pallets. So now my shoulders and arms are very sore. Also most of my leg muscles are sore from my walks, I guess I haven't been stretching good enough. My shins are really sore, muscles I guess I haven't been using in my daily work out routines using the DVD's. And on top of all of that, the living room is a mess so I'd have to clean it first before being able to do a work out. It's been snowing this morning, so we won't be going out for a walk this afternoon. Had I known it was going to snow, I would have made sure to have the kids get the living room tidied before bed.

So there, I've done my whining for the day.

 In other news, the scale read 262.4lbs at 7:30am.

See you tomorrow.

Day 90 - ten days left

Scale read 263.2lbs at 7:30am. I'm afraid it's really not going to happen...this idea of getting below 260. Oh well. nothing to do but keep on keeping on.

Went for a walk with the kids in the chariot again. same route as yesterday and was able to shave 1 minute off of the our time. However it may have been the wind pushing me home...it's pretty crazy out there right now.

Day 89 - SPRING! it's finally spring!

Scale at 7:30am 264lbs

I spent most of the day outside. It was glorious. I raked the lawn to loosen the leave and then I mowed the lawn to mulch up all the leaves left over from the fall. Now our yard looks clean and tidy. In the after noon I took the kids on a walk all around town in the chariot.  Kathryn had the day off form school so she came along. The route we took is just shy of 5km and it took us  us 49 minutes.

Now I am kinda sore... but feeling great.

Day 86 - another day

Had another long light with baby girl. She is currently napping, and I should be doing something. But I am not. The living room is a mess so there isn't space to do a work out. The kitchen is a mess. The laundry needs folded. Toys need put away. I should give my boy some undivided attention. There is sewing that needs to be done, mending of pants for the missionaries and such. So will I get a work out in today? I doubt it. I'll have to start fresh next week when hopefully baby girl is back to her regular self.

In other news, the scale read 261.4lbs at 7:30am. Not to shabby for not having done any exercise for the past 4 days.

See you tomorrow.

Day 85 - catching up on much needed sleep

So baby girl has an ear infection. I didn't ever get a chance to do a work out yesterday. I ended up holding my baby for most of the day again. Today, she laid down for a nap at 10am and she has been sleeping ever since, every once in a while I here her make a noise, but then it is quiet again. I've just left here be as I know she is catching up on some much needed sleep. I too took the opportunity to catch up on some much needed sleep. I also took them time to just hang out with my little boy who has been pretty neglected these past few days. So today, I haven't yet done a workout, maybe I will get to it after the kids go to bed tonight, I'll just have to wait and see what happens.

The scale read 262.6lbs at 7:30am.

Day 84 - so tired...need sleep

Had another rough night with baby girl. Thankfully she doesn't have a fever anymore, but she doesn't have her appetite back yet and she is still kinda sad. She is napping right now, but it's been a fitful sleep. I should really go do a work out right now, but I want to nap, but I better at least do a quick 20 minute work out.

The scale read 262.4lbs this morning at 7:00

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Bah, I didn't get to it soon enough, and baby girl is awake and crying, will try again this afternoon, when she (hopefully) will have  a nap again.

See you tomorrow

Day 83

No work out will get done today, I have a very sad and sick baby who wants me to hold her. We had a rough night, with not a lot of sleeping. poor baby is on Day two of a nasty fever and she is just so sad. So it is a cuddle day today.

Scale read 264.3lbs this morning at 7:30

See you tomorrow

Day 82

numbers going in the wrong direction again. 265lbs this morning at 8am. Whatever. Did a 30 minute work out, and now I feel exhausted. All is well.

See you tomorrow.

Day 79

Not a very eventful day in the world of exercise. The scale read 263lbs this morning at 7:30. I did a work out, but only for 20 minutes. I was so sluggish, it was a miracle that I got through 20 minutes. It's looking as though my hopes of dropping below 260 are not going to be realized, unless I have a seriously amazing 20 days...anything is possible, but looking at my track record, those numbers aren't likely to budge very much. BUT, that is no excuse to not put for a full effort for the next 20 days. I'll finish these 100 days strong, and then I'll move on to the next 100 days, with new challenges and new motivations. I really am loving the idea of breaking this journey up into 100 day bits. If I can keep this up then I know that success will come. Just gotta keep going, keep moving forward, and keep working at it 100 days at a time.

See you tomorrow.

Day 78 - my evening dilemma

I forgot to weigh myself this morning AND I fell asleep on the floor watching Cars with James this morning, so I haven't yet done a work out. Now that it is 9:30pm, I don't want to do a work out, I want to go sew. I have a million projects running through my head and not nearly enough time to work on them all. What to do, what to do....

see you tomorrow, maybe then I will have finally made up my mind...

Day 77 - Why didn't I ask sooner?

Scale read 264lbs this morning at 7:30.

On Monday night after saying prayers before climbing into bed, I had the impression, again, that I needed to ask Daniel to give me a priesthood blessing in regards to my efforts to loose weight. I first had this impression probably two months ago. But I haven't yet acted on it, It was never a good time, I felt silly, or weak or something, I figured I could do it on my own. It kinda felt like a silly thing to ask for a blessing for. And yet, I knew that I wasn't succeeding on my own. I knew that I needed help from my Heavenly Father, and I had been praying for it...and the answer kept coming, "ask for a blessing". And I kept putting it off. Until Monday night. I was laying in bed, Daniel was reading something, and I kept thinking "just ask him". And yet, I just laid there. Until it clicked, the adversary was putting these thoughts of doubt in my head and I needed to just ask. So I did. I just blurted it out, and even said how silly I felt and that I had been thinking about it for such a long time. Daniel laughed at me...not because I had asked for the blessing, but more so how it all came out. Then he told me that he didn't think it was silly, and that it seemed completely reasonable. So last night, before heading to bed, he laid his hand on my head and gave me a priesthood blessing. One of the first things he said was "Your Heavenly Father is by your side on this journey, and he wants you to succeed." If I had any doubt that this blessing was from my Heavenly Father, this sentence certainly affirmed that it was indeed what He wanted me to hear. "This Journey I'm on" is a phrase that I use  often when I am talking to my Heavenly Father about my goals and desires for weight loss. And to hear that word used in my blessing assured me that He had been listening to me, and he was indeed by my side. I was encouraged to keep working on new goals, to reevaluate what needs to be done to reach them. I was told that I would find new ways to include exercise in my life as the weather improved and warmed out, and that I would be surprised to find my children leading out in this way. I was encouraged to be positive and patient and that results will come. 

So this is me being patient, and on the look out for new ideas. I felt so peaceful after the blessing that I wondered why I had waited so long to ask....silly prideful me. Just another lesson in humility I suppose.

See you tomorrow

Day 76

At 7:30am the scale read 263.2lbs. Right now I should be exercising, but I am so tired and I have spent about 30 minutes or more arguing with myself over exercising or napping. And yet, I am still doing neither. Napping however, seems to be winning. And then I'll just have to hope that I will get a chance to work out after I put the kids to bed tonight. I'm just so sleepy...

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So I did have a glorious nap. And I did do a 20 minute work out after the kids went to bed. I'm such a good girl...

See you tomorrow

Day 75 - WOW! 3/4 done!

Today when I stepped on the scale at 8am, the numbers read 262.8lbs. Getting close to the 260 mark. I am sure hoping that I can break that number in the next 25 days.

I did two 20min workouts today. The second one is a little more challenging. It is a faster pace, I always find it hard to keep up, but it feels good. Feeling positive today. Even if I haven't seen the results that I was hoping for on the scale. I am happy with the way I feel over all. When these next 25 days are up, I'll start a new 100 day challenge that will include different goals that will help on this journey. Not sure what exactly they will be, likely will include tracking what I eat and getting ready to run a 5k race again. I like the idea of taking this journey 100 days at a time. Maybe, just maybe I'll be able to keep with it for the long haul.

See you tomorrow.

Day 72

Scale read 262.4lbs this morning at 7:30. I'm glad that number is showing up more often. Hope I will keep seeing those numbers drop over the next couple of weeks. All I gotta do is just keep working at it.

Today I did a new 40min workout, I've actually done it once before. I like it, it is a little different, a little more peppy. I think it might become a regular in my rotation.

See you tomorrow

Day 71

Yesterday I didn't get up at 6am to work out, even though I knew it would be the only time I would have to do so....I just hit the snooze button and kept sleeping.

Today however, I did work out. The scale read 262.4lbs this morning at 10:30am. I had wanted to do a 40 minute work out, but I just didn't have the energy to do so, and I had to take kids to the dentist, so I was glad for the excuse to cut it short. Tomorrow I will make time for 40 minutes. It will feel great.

Only 30 days left of this challenge...If I am going to get those numbers to drop below 260 and stay there, I am going to really have to apply myself, especially watch what I am eating, as that seems to be my week spot. I can do this. I really can. Right?

Day 69

The scale gave me that dreaded number again this morning at 8am...266lbs. Yesterday it read 264 near the same time. The kids had the day off of school again, so once again, I didn't ever get around to exercising. I did this morning tho. So very tired. I'm suffering through a heavy menstrual cycle. We'll say that is what is to blame for the unkind numbers this morning. Took some measurments to day since I haven't done that in a long time. They didn't look any different to me, I'll have to go back and compare them with the others.

bust 50"
Arm 14.5"
Waist 51"
Hip 54"
Thigh 30.5"
Calf 16.5"

Day 66

This morning at 9am the scale read 261.4lbs. Now that's a number I haven't seen for a long while. Not sure if it is here to stay, but I'm glad it made an appearance today. I really hope to see more of it in the next few days or so.

See you tomorrow.

Day 65

At 7:30am the scale read 263lbs.

It seems like the new number is 263. I can live with that for now. It's better than the 266 it was. And better than the 269 I started with. Six pounds is still 6 pounds, even if it isn't where I thought I'd be at this point. It is something, and I'll take it.
Now baby sleeps, and I should really get busy with doing a work out...but I am tired and want to have a nap too. Maybe I'll take a 20min nap and then get busy. I think I can handle that.
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So I had a nap, and then got up and did two 20 minute work outs. Don't know what's wrong with me, but I barely made it through, I was so tired at the end I couldn't keep up.  Oh well, got it done, that's all that matters.

See you tomorrow.

Day 63

The scale read 263.4lbs this morning at 7:30am.

The numbers have managed to stay below the 265 mark for quite some time now. So I guess that means I've officially lost a few pounds. Not nearly as much as I had hoped by this point in the challenge. But something is better than nothing. If I stop eating the chocolate eggies my hubby brought home for me the other day, I'll likely have better success at dropping a few more fractions of a pound here and there. So I'll try not to indulge quite so much in those delicious little ball of chocolate that I LOVE so much.

All in all I am feeling pretty positive about things today.

See you tomorrow.

Day 62

scale read 264.4lbs

I was so tired today. I've been up since 5:30am with a cranky Ella. Discovered at bed time that she cut new teeth. Because of that I napped this morning when she did instead of doing a work out. I didn't get around to a work out until 10pm tonight. But I got it in. Better than yesterday. The kids were home from school so I just didn't ever get around to do anything.

Day 58

both yesterday morning and today the scale read 264.2lbs.
Yesterday I had three sick kids at home, so we all watched Monsters University instead of doing a work out. I've had two long sleepless nights with a feverish boy, so today I don't much feel like doing a work out now that Ella is napping. all I want to do is nap too. what to do, what to do....
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later that day...
Alright, so I sucked it up, and finished up with my pity party, and then got my butt in gear and did a work out. I know, I know, I'm such a good girl.

Day 56 - Mmmm chocolate!

The scale read 263.2lbs this morning. good.

I started using a cocoa and cornstarch mixture as a dry shampoo. It works great, the only problem is that when I am working out, I can smell brownies the entire time leaving me craving the delicious treat. Hmm...rough life.

day 55

weighed in at 263.6lbs this morning at 7:30. That number seems to be showing up more frequently. So that makes me happy.

This morning I just didn't want to do a work out at all. But I did it anyway and now that it is done, of course I am glad that I did it. I guess that is one thing about this challenge, even if I am not seeing the results that I would like to see on the scale, I like how I feel after I've done my work out for the day. I have a good variety of  DVDs and a good variety of types of work outs so I'm not getting bored with them. That keeps me going. I do however look forward to spring so we can move some of our work outs to the beautiful outdoors. Kathryn and I want to start riding our bikes and walking/jogging our 5km route around town. Oh that will be so nice! But as it looks today, that is a far way off yet. We just got a bunch more snow and the temp has been well below -20C. The forecast looks hopeful will the temperatures reaching above 0C by the end of the week and into the following week. There is hope.

see you tomorrow.

Day 54

Scale read 265.4lbs this morning at 8:30am.

nothing really to report today. just trying to be positive about this whole thing. something's gotta give eventually. right?

see you tomorrow.

Day 50 - time to step it up.

This morning at 6:30am the scale read 263.4lbs. Better than the day I started at 269lbs. But I thought I'd be farther along. Most of the past 50 day I have hovered around the 266 mark, a disappointing outcome. So I guess I'm gong to have to be more diligent in the food department. I need to recommit to not eating ANY treats through out the week and really watch what treats I do eat on the weekends. So today, halfway through this challenge, I'm stepping it up. I want real results in the next 50 days. I really want to drop below the 260 mark..and stay there. You wouldn't think that would be hard...but I've had a heck of a time so far.

Here's to the next 50 days.
See you tomorrow.

Day 49

Having a crappy day today. Just feel yucky. Haven't yet done a work out. hoping maybe later this afternoon I'll feel up to it.

The numbers read 264.4lbs at 7:45am.

see you tomorrow

Day 48 - Are you kidding me?

scale 266.0lbs at 6:15am. I guess the little bit of ice cream and popcorn I ate last night negated everything I have done. This just isn't working the way I had hoped. And that's all I have to say about that right now. Need to stay positive...right?

worked out with Kathryn early this morning. A good way to start the day...if nothing else.
see you tomorrow.

Day 47

scale 265.4lbs at 7:30am

worked out to two 20 min programs
did pushups, but could only do 17

duty done.
see you tomorrow.

Day 45

It's Saturday, and I don't usually do a work out, but because I missed twice this week, I figured I'd squeak one in.

Today the numbers read 265.2lbs at 9:30am

Once again, that's all there is to report. See you tomorrow.

Day 44

This morning at 9am the scale read 262.6lbs. progress? maybe, maybe not.

nothing exciting to report. I worked out, did strength training, did my pushups.

see you tomorrow.

Day 43 - sickish day

feeling icky today. haven't eaten much. didn't have the energy or care to work out. head ache all day too.

at 9am the scale read 266.2lbs.

Day 42 - bah...

it's 8:45pm and I haven't yet got a work out in. It's tricky with the kids home. and now I don't feel like doing it, but I know I should. But I don't want to....I'm such a baby.

The scale read 266.4lbs at eight this morning. Stupid numbers. Have I mentioned that I hate this game?

So I was a good girl and I did my work out. And now I am purusing Pinterest and I saw this quote from someones fortune cookie  "Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest."

Day 41 - and I'm back.

It's Tuesday, and I haven't worked out since Wednesday last week, that is until today. Life happened and I felt I had more important things to get done for my kids. So they came first. Then we were gone for the weekend to visit my brother and his family in Calgary and to attend a temple sealing in the Calgary temple. We got back late last night.

This morning I stepped on the scale at about 10am and it read 267.4lbs. So the time off seems to have cost me some. It's going to be tricky this week as the kids are on reading week break and will be home all week. But I'll just have to make it work. I can't afford to take more time off. getting close to half way through, and I really want to see something budge. I haven't been doing my pushups, I just seem to forget about them. I'll try to get back at it this week. The last time I did remember I was doing 18.

Day 37 - Or affectionately called Valentines Day

Ok so yesterday the scale read 264.6lbs at 8am. I did not do any exercises yesterday. Instead I spent the day getting things ready for my kids and hubby for Valentines Day and also for Ella's birthday tomorrow. I only have so much free time while Ella is napping to get stuff done, so I felt I had to put the workout on the back burner. I could have got up early to workout, but I had been up late the night before so I knew that if I did then I would need a nap and that would take up some of my precious free time. so no workout yesterday.

This morning at 7:30am the scale read 262.4lbs. I haven't yet done my work out. I didn't get up early because I didn't end up going to bed until 3:30am. Silly girl. I was up putting the finishing touches on my Valentine's gifts for the kids. I;m not exactly sure if I'll get a work out in today either, as I still have to make Ella's birthday cake, and I'd like to get her teddy bear sewn that I got cut out yesterday.  So we'll just have to see how the day goes.

It's measurement day

arm 14"
Chest  51"
waist 49.5"
hip 53.5"
thigh 30"
calf 16.25"

Day 35 - itsy bitsy teeny weeny baby steps

at 6:30am the scale read 264.2lbs. possible progress.

Got up and did a short workout with Kathryn this morning. We will need to work on getting out of bed earlier so that we can do more than one 10min workout.

that's all there is to report today.

See you tomorrow.

Day 34 - feeling hope rise

Scale read 264.4lbs at 8am. Better. Not so discouraged today. But I still hate it all. nothing really more to report today.

see you tomorrow.

Day 33 - I hate this thing, I HATE IT!

Today when I stepped on the scale at 10am, it read 267lbs, and I just wanted to cry. Thirty three days into this thing, doing cardio for 30mins and then strength training 5 days a week, and I am no farther ahead today than I was when I started. Even my measurements aren't showing any real results. I'm trying to eat better. I'm trying. But I guess not hard enough. I'm tired of disappointment after disappointment. I'm tired of feeling like this. I hate it and I want to be done. But I wont stop now. I'll stick it out for the 100 days. I'm no quitter. I'm just terribly afraid that on day 100 everything is going to be exactly as it was on day 1. And all of this will have been for not.

Day 30 - a third of the way there

Scale read 264.8lbs this morning at 8. This is good. Maybe I have got over that hump and it's now time to see the results.

Today is measurement day.

Bust 50.5
arm 14.25
Waist 50.5
hip 53.5
thigh 29.75
calf 16.25

Day 29 - going down down down

Scale read 265.8 at 10am this morning. This is good. Did two work out videos today. felt great.

see you tomorrow.

Day 28 - Up and at 'em

Got up this morning at 6am like a good girl and got in a work out with both Kathryn and Tansley. A little crowded in the living room, but it was good. not much else to report.

scale read 266.0 at 6am this morning.  I guess that's all there is to say today.

see you tomorrow.

Day 27

268.2lbs....numbers are going in the wrong direction. But I did eat too many off limit food this weekend and I am going through my first menstrual cycle since Ella was born. So I won't take it too hard. Just get back to work.

It was a hard day today. I have this massive headache again. This cold I have is really kicking my but. I was so tired this morning that I just slept on the living room floor while Ella napped and James watched a movie. I was hoping to sleep off the headache, but it was still there when I woke up. Finally when Ella laid down for her afternoon nap I got dressed in my work out gear and got to work. I felt pretty good while exercising, a little sluggish, but I didn't notice the headache at all. Now that I am done, and writing this post it's back again, same as before. Oh well, hopefully this stupid cold will go away soon.

Day 26 - Quarter of the way in

So just like that I'm a quarter of the way into this thing. Scale read 266.6lbs this morning. Didn't do anything on the weekend again. And didn't do any work out today. It was an off day. The kids were out of school and Daniel was home from work, so we spent the day cleaning the house and garage. Lots got done, just not the work out. We went in to Lethbridge for a movie and swimming. Now it's nearly 11pm and a work out just isn't going to happen.  I think that I'll plan on doing two videos tomorrow morning and maybe try and do that every Tuesday and Thursday while Ella is napping. I usually have the time to do it, so I might as well. But I'll have to just play it by ear, with the kids and all, it's not always very predictable. I better at least do some pushups today. 18 if I can, since it's time to add two.

Day 23 - Exercising with all the kids

Today's workout was entertaining. I didn't get up and do it at 6am, with no good reason. I woke up and felt pretty good, but I still didn't get up. I told myself I would do it while Ella napped. But then when Ella was napping, James wanted me to play with him. So we put together his big floor puzzle and then we played with his trains and before you knew it, Ella was waking up. So then I decided I would do it in the afternoon after the kids got home from school and Ella was napping, then maybe some of the kids would like to join me. So at 4pm finally Ella went down for a nap, and I decided it was now or never. So I asked the kids if they would like to work out with me, and they all came. It was kinda crowded in the living room. I decided that I wanted to do a new work out today, one that I had never done before. We put it in and started working out. The kids kept bumping into each other, but everyone was having fun.Maybe we'll do that again sometime.

did 16 pushups today...barely.

Weighed in at 265.8lbs at 5:15pm. (at 6am it said 264.4)

Day 22

Weighed in at 11am this morning, the scale read 266.0lbs. 

I wish I had something exciting to write about today, but it was just another day with nothing exciting to discuss. My work out was good. I'm thinking about only get up at 6am on Mon, Wed and Fri and then doing my work out at 10am(ish) when Ella lays down for a nap. I've been doing that all this week because I've had this stupid head cold and can't seem to get myself out of bed at 6am. I don't know if I'll change it permanently. Maybe just give myself permission to do it on those mornings that I just can't get up.

I haven't done push ups for a couple of days. I better do that today and get back on track. Lets see if I can do 16...

see you tomorrow.

Day 21

Well yesterday's strategy didn't work today. 266.2lbs are the numbers that came up on the scale this morning. Whatever. No time to focus on that. Only time for moving forward and doing the best that I can.

Nothing more to report today.

See you tomorrow.

Day 20 - I can't breath.

OK, if I thought I felt crappy yesterday and didn't want to work out, today trumps that, ten fold. I am so stuffed up, breathing is a really effort. Just like yesterday, I didn't get up early today. BUT I did still do my work out after I laid the baby down for a nap. And just like yesterday, I was glad that I did. I felt great after the work out...now not so much, I'm right back to feeling all stuffed up and crappy. But this morning I felt pretty good.

I stepped on the scale this morning at 7 and the numbers read 265.8lbs. Yeah for that, but as a side note, that was before I had worked out and before I had eaten breakfast. I usually don't weigh myself until after I have worked out, and sometimes not until after I've eaten breakfast. So the numbers might reflect that. I think that I will try to remember to weigh myself before my work out every morning, I seem to like those numbers better....I'm sure it won't make any difference in the long run. Whether I am stuck at 266 or 265, I am still stuck. But for a day or two it might make me feel better.

Day 19 - I don't want to.

I did get up and exercise on Friday and I weighed in at the usual. I just didn't blog because as the day went on I felt more and more ill, so I never did get around to blogging for the day.  Saturday morning was much of the same. In the afternoon we headed to Lethbridge. I spent two hours or so with the kids, walking around one of my favourite places in Lethbridge. Indian Battle Park, it's down by the river. The weather was nice and warm and most of the snow is melted away. There were plenty of puddles and mud for the kids to stomp around it.

This morning, I didn't want to do this anymore. I wanted to be done. I wanted to give up. I hated it, and hated not seeing the numbers on the scale change. Once again the scale read 266.6lbs this morning. I hate maintaining. I can do that without getting up early every morning to work out. If I am getting up every morning to work out, I want to see numbers change. I want to be able to see that it's worth it. It's not like I don't have weight to loose, there is plenty of that. So why can't I loose it? I know the bit about muscle weighing more than fat, so don't feed me that line. I've gone through this frustration before. It's always the same. And I am pretty sure it is what brings me to a halt every time. It is so hard to stay motivated when the numbers on the scale refuse to budge. I know it's only been 19 days (this time). But I am terrified that this is going to end up like every other time and weeks down the road, I'll step on the scale and it will still say 266.6lbs. And then the 100 days will be up, and then what? What I want is that there will be a significant change in those numbers, like by 10 or more so that I can say "look what a difference this made! If I keep this up, I'll be at my goal in no time!" But what happens if I don't get that 10 difference? Nothing. I'll be frustrated and not want to keep going. What's the point? I'm obviously doomed to be this size in spite of my best efforts. Negative talk, negative talk, negative talk....enough.

So because I didn't measure myself on Friday, I did it today.

Arms 14"
Chest 50.25"
waist 49.5"
hip 53.25"
thigh 30.5"
calf 16"

I also added 2 and did 16 pushups today.

Day 16

Today's weight, taken at 7:20am, 266.8lbs. I don't think the piece of cheesecake that my hubby brought home for me last night and I ate at 1am helped out at all with my effort to make that number drop. BUT I hadn't seen him since early (like 3am) Saturday last week. He was away on business in Niagara falls. He got home late and we stayed up way to late. I wasn't going to get up this morning, but Kathryn got up and so then I made myself get out of bed. I am so going to need a nap today.

See you tomorrow.

Day 15 - False hope

So this morning at 6, before I started my work out, I stepped on the scale and it read 264.4lbs. I was almost ecstatic, until I thought of the fact that your weight fluctuates during the day, and usually I don't weigh myself until after I have done my work out. So at 8am, after my work out and after breakfast I stepped on the scale, and guess what popped up....yep that same ol' number 266.6lbs. Bummer.

Everything else went well today. Today I did 14 pushups. I was supposed to add 2, but I just couldn't get past 14...in fact I barely made it to 14. So I'll stick it out here a few more days.

see you tomorrow.

Day 14

It was so hard to get out of bed this morning. Finishing my workout last night at 11pm and not getting to bed until after midnight might have something to do with it.

Today's weight is 266.6lbs taken at 8am. Seem to be stuck in the 266 range. Will have to make a greater effort at thinking about what I am eating and watching portion sizes. It would be really great to see those numbers drop...even just a little bit, and on a regular basis.

Getting out of bed this morning, I thought of how nice it would be if this was easy. If like I just woke up one morning, and BAM, I had lost 15 pounds. And then that just kept happening over and over again until suddenly I was at my ideal weight.

But it ain't gonna happen, so I just gotta keep going.

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Just saw this on pinterest. A good reminder for me on this day.

Day 13

This morning at 7:30 when I stepped on the scale it read 266.6lbs, holding steady...lets see if we can get those numbers to drop this week.

It's 11:20pm and I am just finishing up my work out for the day. I was a lazy bum and refused to get out of bed this morning. But I vowed I would still do my work out today. So there, it's done. I haven't been happy with my ab exercises. I haven't yet felt like they have got a real work out. So it changed it up a bit tonight, and they certainly feel like they got a work out. They may even ache a bit in the morning. So I'll keep up the routine. I also tried a new video that was a 20 minute circuit training work out. I've never done it before so I felt pretty awkward and uncoordinated, but I think I'll get the hang of it. Even with all my awkwardness, I still worked up a good sweat.

The DVD's that I've been using are Shelly Mcdonald's Caribbean Workout, the Aerobics and today the Abs Buns and Thighs. I also use the SparkPeople's Cardio Blast with Coach Nicole. Kathryn really likes this one because it is a lot easier to follow.

Day 12

Today's weight taken at 7:30am is 266.8lbs

Got up even though I didn't want to. I wanted to mope in bed because I miss my hubby. But I got up and was glad I did after I got going. I think that I need to start getting up at 6 instead of 6:15. I know it's just 15 minutes, so it shouldn't be a big deal. But I am not a morning person, so 15 of sleep is always welcome. But I need a little more time to get a little more in. I kinda felt like I cut things short this morning, but I had to get on with the morning and get kids ready for school. So right now I am resetting my alarm to wake me up at 6am.

Today I added 2 to my pushups. That brings me to 14. It was a bit tricky getting those extra two in, but I was able to do it. Slow and steady.

Tonight as I type this, I am dying for a snack. I just have the munchies and I keep thinking about what I could go get to munch on. I just went grocery shopping, so there are all kinds of things to snack on. And most of them are even healthy, but it is 10pm, and part of this challenge is to not eat after dinner, except on cheat day.

See you tomorrow.

Day 11 - This is me now

Alright, I thought I'd better post a picture of me at the beginning of my 100 day challenge so that I have something to compare with at the end of this challenge. Hopefully we'll be able to see some improvement.

Ugh! So here I am in my work out gear(and yes there are still Christmas decorations up...I have no good excuse for it, they are just there). Not great. I could list off a bunch of things that I don't like about this picture of me, but instead, I'm going to force myself to say something nice...

1. I like my smile, I always have, even just this half smile here, I like it. I was actually in the beginning stages of sticking my tongue out at my oldest daughter who is taking the picture.
2. I like my boobs. All thanks to a great bra. At least they don't look like I've had 5 kids.
3. I really like how I look in these glasses, I like how they accentuate my eyes without having to put any makeup on.

Day 10 - a tenth of the way there

I'm terrible at getting anything done towards this on Saturdays. It's 11:30pm and I just now did my pushups(12 of them) and that is all that I did. I kept meaning to get to my ab exercises, but I just never did. It seems to be hard to get around to it with the kids home all day. A lame excuse. I'll do better next Saturday, I promise.

Today's weight, taken at 11:40pm is 268.8lbs...oh yes and I just ate some chocolate chip mint ice cream...and probably more than I should have...

Day 9

Today's weight, taken at 7:30am, is 266.2lbs.

I didn't get up to exercise this morning. I kinda didn't get up right when my alarm went off and then next thing I know it's almost 7am, too late to start now. I'm kinda not sad about that, because last night at bed time, I promised my son that today when Ella was napping we would play with his trains, just him and I. And now because I didn't get up early and exercise I wont feel like I need to have a nap. First thing after breakfast this morning, the boy asked me if Ella was tired because he wanted to play trains. I told him he would just have to wait for Ella to take her nap. I'm hoping that maybe during Ella's afternoon nap that I'll get my work out in, even though all the other kids will be home from school. We'll see how it goes.

This weeks measurements;

Chest 51
waist 50.5"
Hip 54"
Arm 13.75"
Thigh 28.5"
Calf 16.25"

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..Later that day....
So her it is 10:26pm and I am now just finishing up my work out. Better late than never.
For interest sake I just stepped on the scale and it read 268.8lbs

Day 8

Today's weight, taken at 7:30am, is 266.8lbs.
So it seems that there is some progress being made. SO very tired this morning. I really need to work at getting to bed earlier. It's so hard for me, as I am a natural night owl. And there are always so many things to get done once the kids are all in bed. Since I've been doing this I have been having a nap and that doesn't help with the going to bed earlier. But I am too tired to make it through the day with out a nap. James usually comes and hangs out with me in my bed and plays games on my phone. Sometimes he even naps with me. I guess I'm still getting sleep. But it would be nice to use that time when Ella is napping to spend some one on one time with James instead of sleeping...So some how I'm going to have to get this all sorted out.

See you tomorrow.

ps Today I did 12 pushups. It nearly killed me to get the 12 in, but that might have had something to do with the 11 month old trying to climb on my back.

Day 7

Got up this morning without a hitch. Kathryn has been getting up with me. She's awesome. She told me that she'd be my sidekick to keep me in gear. Today we did something different. We worked out to a DVD. It's one that I have used a number of time, so I am used to the routines. Kathryn was struggling to keep up, much like I did the first few times that I tried working out to it. We'll keep at it though, and before I know it she'll be kicking my butt. It was a great work out and I really felt like I had accomplished something. We'll be doing it again tomorrow. In fact, I might just replace riding my bike for a video work out. It's much more enjoyable and I feel like I get more out of it. When the weather gets nice, then we'll start riding outside.

Today's weight: 268.2, taken at 9:25pm.

Day 6

It's 8:44am and I haven't yet done my workout (although I did just shovel the driveway and sidewalk...that must count for something). I was up in plenty of time to do it, the problem was, I was up with a sick baby, that just wanted me to hold her. Once I had her asleep again at about 6am, I tried to lay her down so that I could do my work out, but she woke up and just cried. So I held her instead. Now she is finally asleep in her own bed, and I know that I could totally do a workout, but I am so tired that I just can't bring my self to do it right at this moment, even though it may be the only time I'll have a chance to do it today. So I sit here having an argument discussion with myself about the pros and cons of not doing it right now. But even as I do so, my eyelids are drooping, and I am having a hard time staying awake...so nap time it is. And I'll just have to see what the rest of today brings. As much as I want to stick to my 100 day goal, a sick baby trumps everything else. So I am going to just have to be OK with this and not let guilt set in.

See you tomorrow

Day 5

Yesterday was my rest day, so there was nothing to report.

Today was legs and hips day....ouch. First little miss Ella was up at 5:50 this morning. My alarm was set to go off at 6:15, and of course she wasn't interested in just going back to sleep, So I was up extra early. My legs are still killing me from Friday's work out so I wasn't able to do a full set of most of the exercises, but I gave it my all.  Fun stuff. I then went and rode my bike for 10 minutes. I know I wanted to do 20min, but I'm just going to have to work up to that.

Today I added my two push ups making it an even 10. The last one  was a little tricky but I was able to do it.
Weighing in today at 271.6lbs, taken at 8am. Got a long ways to go. But I'll just keep at it.

See you tomorrow.

Day 3

Not much to report on today, except that I hurt...a lot. My thighs are week and so very sore. Feels good and miserable all at the same time. Sure glad I have a couple days break before the leg and hip torture is scheduled again. However, I'm looking forward to the day when the pain is gone and I can do so much more.

Today's weight taken at 10pm is 272. Yikes! Yesterday's was better.

See you tomorrow.

Day 2

Yesterday was Day 1 and I started this challenge by working on my abs and learning that I can do 8 pushups with out stopping. That's actually better than I thought I'd do.

This morning I was up at 6:30am to start my day with a leg and hip workout and then ride my bike. The leg and hip work out looks like this

• 25 squats
• 10 single leg dead lifts (each leg)
• 10 single leg kickbacks (each leg)
• 25 plie squats
• 1 minute of high knees
• 20 calf raises
• 10 side lunges (each leg)
• 10 walking lunges (each leg)
• 1 minute of butt kickers

The idea is to repeat this three times....yeah, that wasn't going to happen today. But I knew that and my plan is to work up to that. Today I almost got through it once. By the time I got tot he walking lunges my legs were shaky and it was hard to keep my balance. The butt kickers...well I couldn't even do those, I could barely jog in place. Then when I went to walk down the stairs to ride my stationary bike, I was so shaky I thought I'd fall down the stairs. I only rode my bike for 10 minutes today because I had to put my bike back together after I had taken the tires off to fill them with air. Ideally I'd like to ride it for at least 20 minutes.

All in all, it was a good morning. I stepped on the scale after my work out, it read 269lbs. This weeks measurements are as follows
Calf 17"
Thigh 28.5"
Hips 54"
Waist 50"
Bust 51"
Arms 14"

100 day challenge

So I came across this site today giveit100.com and it got me thinking. The idea is to do something, anything for 100 days. Maybe you want to learn to juggle, maybe you want to learn to dance, maybe you want to start exercising, whatever it is you do it everyday for 100 days and make a video of you doing it each day. Well I am not interested in making a video, but I am in for documenting it here every day for 100 days, starting today.
This is what I am going to do:

•  Six days a week I will do strength training of some kind
•  Five days a week I will do cardio for at least 20min
•  I will eat smarter, no snacking after supper.
•  Sunday is my rest/cheat day. By "cheat day" I simply mean that is the day I can enjoy a treat that is off limits the rest of the week.

So to start, for the month of January I will be doing the following;

•  Pushups every day, My max right now is 8 with out stopping. I will add 2 every three days.
• Monday, Wednesday, Friday I will do strength training on my hips and legs
• Monday, Wednesday, Friday I will ride my stationary bike for at least 20min
• Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday I will so strength training on my abs
• Tuesday, Thursday I will work out to a exercise DVD for at least 20min
• Everyday I will make a blog post
• I will weigh in everyday and take measurement once a week all of which will be added to my blog post.

When February comes around I will change things up a bit.

So there it is, that is the plan. One hundred days will take me to April 18th, the beginning of Easter Break.

Wish me luck! I'll see you again tomorrow.